Words fail, words fail
There’s nothing I can say
Except sometimes, you see everything you wanted
And sometimes, you see everything you wish you had
And it’s right there, right there, right there
In front of you
And you want to believe it’s true
So you… make it true
And you think maybe everybody wants it
And needs it… a little bit… too
This was just a sad invention
It wasn’t real, I know
But we were happy
I guess I couldn’t let that go
I guess I couldn’t give that up
I guess I wanted to believe
‘Cause if I just believe
Then I don’t have to see what’s really there
No, I’d rather pretend I’m something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I’m something other than
This mess that I am
‘Cause then I don’t have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see
‘Cause I’ve learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
I never let them see the worst of me
‘Cause what if everyone saw?
What if everyone knew?
Would they like what they saw?
Or would they hate it too?
Will I just keep on running away from what’s true?
All I ever do is run
So how do I step in
Step into the sun?
Step into the sun
Written by: Benj Pasek, Justin Paul
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
For personal clarification, this is no longer how I feel.
I’ve stepped into the sun.
This is, however, a wrenching description of how many of us feel as we create the “me” you see. We so desperately don’t want to be ourselves because we assume you’ll hate us as much as we hate ourselves, and sometimes we foolishly seize on opportunities to be who we think we want to be… who we think YOU want, and need, us to be.
Why do we do it?