I kept (it) to myself

I kept (it) to myself
oh, so long – far too long
believing I could
somehow
Be
My
Self
while (it) was “kept”

Turns out (it) was
My
Self,
so “keeping”
(it) meant
that My
Self
was just
(self)

learned that my (self) was
not. nearly. enough.
would not ever be
I was trapped in between
the parentheses

confused yet?
you’ll find that
(it) does that
to you
and tortures the
root of your
soul.

So (it) had to be It
for (self) to be Self

remove the parentheses’ purpose.

now
(it)
is
now
It
and no longer is
kept
and Self has been
set
free
from (self).

punctuation designed for
thought after thoughts
must be purged
for It/Self to flow freely.

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